Latest update on my situation.. = yay, it's kind of offical (-:= I'm happy again.

sorry if I haven't made any sense for the past....um...while... but y'know.

Anyway, now that's sorted (for now) back to life! hmm...lets see. . .Drama practical tomorrow at 2pm-ish. I have 5 characters in three 15min plays... and I keep muddling lines up and getting annoyed at myself. I hate the feeling that I'm letting others' down. -Even though of course Joe and Aled forget lines too. We're all quite equal really.. in most ways. Aled does have a thing against trying anything adventurous, new or different, and his ideas are kindof mainstream and normal, whereas Joe has all the radical good ideas, the things that a) move our work along, and b) make our work ..er..work. And me? I kind of fit in between.. I actually often find myself subconciously agree or disagreeing for the sakes of drama-class-politics..i.e. compliment fishing from mrs. mitchell. i.e. popularity. i.e. if i disagree with aled's idea..I'd be on Joe's side...and Joe's pretty dominant so that's a good idea to start with, and so mrs. mitchell often does what Joe suggests. So basically then I end up on the 'good team' and so forth.. but that's nuts. (Except for 90% of the time Joes ideas are best and so it all works out in the end.) But anything I do disagree with I often do say, but I lack the skill to back them up.. words aren't definate enough and I don't specify properly and besides, verses Joe and Aled (and Mrs mitchell) I have little chance. But there we go.

That same un-definate-ness and vague descriptive qualities I have, have made me seriously think about giving up the A2 part of the A Level Geog I'm presently doing. (i.e leaving it at an AS level). This is uncharacteristic of me, since I have my mum's genes which provide me with get-up-and-go and do-well-ness and try-everything and dont-give-up-for-the-sake-of-being-lazy and adventurness. [ I don't even think I described that well. hmm. ] Anyway.. What brought these thoughts on was mainly my (infamous) Geography PROJECT (arrrghghghg!! run!, run while you can!) which ..um... having my father's genes..caused me to leave right to the last minute.. (ok ok..technically 2 days after the last minute) which meant I had no time in that last rush to do anything else for any other of my 4 subjects.. so I got annoyed with it.
The other thing about A2 Geography is that the exams are essay question ones (I think anyway.. I'm not that great at paying attention to these kind of things..) and guess what I'm reeeally not good at?!?! (ok except for everything i've just mentioned) ESSAY QUESTIONS!!! For AS Geog I got an 'A' (it's a fairly easy subject..that's why I'm doing it partly) but for the geog exam I did in Jan I got a 'D' (guess which was the essay question paper..) So I worked out I didn't want to bother continuing with a crappy subject that I know however hard I try I'm only going to get crappy grade that i'm not happy with. -While bringing down my other-more important- subjects by using up the time. But sensibly I have kind of decided to carry on after all because Joe pointed out in drama, a 'D' in A Level is worth more than an 'A' at AS. ..Only thing is I do like the feeling of telling people I got an A rather than a D....s-:= which is a kind of shallow way of looking at it.

Oh geog is such a boring subject sometimes. Such a boring lesson too. I'm going to become the naughtiest in the class soon by missing lessons and not doing work set and stuff. HAHahaHahHaHAah --I just realised...I AM!!! hahah funny. I'm the one (out of 6 of us) who handed their project in a weekend late.. and didn't try very much for it, and occasionally does miss lessons (from now on it'll be more)..and rarely does work set (if it's essays). heh. I used to be one of the 'good ones'. Which is probably why I get away with so much. (-:= heheeh.. it makes me smile.

Being one of the 'good ones' in the teachers' eyes is a good idea on the whole I have concluded...I can get away with quite a bit more than one who is seen as a bit of a trouble maker..or at least someone who is seen as someone to keep an eye on, like my super-duper good friend Danny.. who I hang around with quite a bit, when making forts in the common room out of large cardboard boxes or being late, not wearing the right uniform, or not going to assembly (ok..so who does now a days) or whatever, Danny would be told off for it where I would be overlooked. My uniform is merging into something I want to wear now, insetad of the specified items.. hehe.. I'm the only one in the school who wears a flowy knee-length flimsy skirt, (we're supposed to wear short black unpleated tight ones) and a navy hoodie from camden town my mum bought about 23 years ago. (ok the camden town bit doesn't have much relevance...) bit it's not supposed to be a hoodie or be navy.
-Or maybe I'm being a bit too biased...I dunno. Maybe it's what I'd like to think.

Oooops... it's an hour after I came online...nearly 11pm.. I have to be getting to bed ready for my drama concentration-needs tomorrow. sigh. (*thinks* must get: fake blood,..shirt,..Dr. Martins, hair grips, gel, hat thingy, and buy a hair brush...)

see you and eat lots of apples and fruit..only things with no disadvantages I think.. (along with veggies and water of course).

*kiss* (-:=

So Happy now? Hmm I'm not sure. scary stuff..not to mention confusing!!! (ahhhh my head!) )-:= sigh

Wow has it been a while...Since the infamous tree 'fell' on the phone line that leads up to our house I've been terribly deprived of my msn buddies and stuff. But now I'm happy!! I am so ever so happy! happy and content with only ..like a couple of little niggling things that could possibly subtract from my imense happy state. It's so good.

Things are good, me and Bef's Bristol adventures on monday and tuesday were ever so exiting and brilliant, the only not so amazing thing about it was a) we had to come back and b) I'm sure the bearings in ANOTHER wheel of our car are starting to go... Snow Patrol were awesome, ("yes! like hot dogs mr president") I haven't listened to any other music since...*sigh*...well.. saying that, since yesterday I have now banned myself from listening to them for a bit cos they make me fed up and want to go on more adventures.

Things with nice people are good..I think... I've spent so long being confused..I finally decide, then it all goes the complete opposite way! which turns out to be a brilliant way for things to go!!! I'm happy! Although I'm not sure about the future of this direction of things..hmm. [sorry if no-one understands this!! It's lacking names and details so tough, it's more for my good than yours.]

Yay we have a phone again!! yay

Hmm...only problem with adventures is the following days.. normal boring routine life... not good. I went to mpyt (youth theatre) after driving back from bristol and carmarthen on tuesday which was a tad bit silly. I said i would because I do like to go to mpyt, but also because I am the lift, so Emi and Danny and Adam and Elin and Harry would find it more difficult to get there without me. But I did feel the tiredness just before I left to go. And when I did get there I got so bored I left and went to see a friend who had an open invitation to come and pop round whenever I was about, so I used it and played a bit of X box for a while. Much better than smelly-sue asking for subs and bossing people about and being a complete poo-ass.

The 25th. The 25th of March, how many people can be born on that day!??! 3 at the moment, and one the day after and that with mothers day means a lot of present buying!! eek! I'm not going to be working at all on saturday..I'm just going to end up shopping the whole time....what to get everyone?!?!?!? *thinks* .. .. .. no-idea.

Pesto is such a good food ..thingy.. (whats the word..???) flavourer...addition...um.. I can't remember the word I'm looking for. Anyway, it goes with anything and blocks out almost all nasty tastes!! makes everything appetising!! yay!! Go pesto!

Ok I'm off now, Im enjoying being able to read others' bloggs like Beths ( www.theplaceofbethsthoughts.blogspot.com ) and ezras and some other ones I don't often read, and some i should read but don't know the address of, like Janie's (?) mentioned in Beth's blog..I should have that address..or maybe it's on beth's 'links' bit..I havent checked.

AaAaAaaanyway. Bye!

I thought I had better update so as to push my MY RED CELL entry from the top, just to show I'm not that overwhelmed by them, and people are getting fed up of them. In the mean time: I'm eating yogurt covered raisinsssssssssssssssss!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
noyesnoyesnoyesnoyesnoyesnoyesnopyemsknarrrrgh!! I've muched through the top half of the pack..now.. I must ..as if everything depends on it .. resist the remaining half... Must... I'm also eating a few bits of another favourite of mine : Freshly baked apricot Bread!!! Yay!!! so warm and soft...mmmm...

I had a fun time tonight. I drove up to Llandod to youth theatre, with Emily, and came back with her Danny and Adam (ahem.) Both ways were equally as fun..despite the way up having no music and only two people in the car..as opposed to 6 people (one in boot) and loud music on the way home.

Me and Emily were talking (-:= which is cool cos we havent talked IN DEPTH for a while, about the most interesting of topics (hehe) which was fun heehehhehe but meant I was thinking about one thing all through youth theatre...as she'll tell you. It was cool.

And then the way back the combination of loud (good) music and lots of people on it's own gave a nice atmosphere, and it was fun. Although---I realised the petrol level was 'in the red' when i had about 13 miles to go...that was a bit dodgy, but I got here ok. (Not sure about my mum leaving for work in tomorrow though...)

(-:=

I'm in a good mood. And why shouldn't I be!? all you people who are trying to do whats best for me etc. hmm.. And that 'rumour' going around about me...grrr..

anyway, must dash. ...nice people on msn to talk to hehee

(-:=

Me agen. quite happy, but putting full stops after single phrases, which isn't always good in my mind. Anyway, Last night!!! I went to see "MY RED CELL" !!!! "One of the most important new bands of 2004" says NME, and how right they are! wow. They are so brilliant live, I was mesmorised! My Red Cell My Red Cell My Red Cell My Red Cell !!! I've told too many people about how me and bethy ( Bethy) went to the tour bus with lead singer Russel got stickers then came back, and we got everyone's signature and I got them all to draw faces too, and we were backstage for a while too. So I won't say it all again. *swoon* me and bethy might even go down to Cardiff when they're there next...y'know..be the complete cliched 'groupies' who follow them around.

I have just realised....after however many days off school because of snow and ice and crappyness like that I should have done some school work..i.e. geography..hmm..that put a brief spark of fright into me..seeing as it's my work, and if i don't do it, it's my head that will fall (-but more importantly I have to show her what I've done in lessons sometimes..ahem..)

Also I've discovered..I am officially a yogurt-covered-raisins-aholic. People give a packet to me, because they know I like them...but I can't help but eat them! yes! all of them...luckily they're not big packs..but you don't need much yogurt covered raisins or bananas or apricots to make you feel sickly. Urgh. My mum brought me some back from my parents weekend away, and consiquently I then felt yucky and had hiccups (?) and I vow not to do that again. yurch. But they're sooooo nice! I can stand not eating chocolate fine...yeah whatever, alcohol, fine, anything other people find hard to resist..I'm fine..it's just yogurt/chocolate covered raisins and such like!!! ARGH!! evil.

oh...there's home made bread too.. I always feel it's a waste to not eat it when its warm and soft.. and if it's not warm and soft I pop it in the microwave for a few seconds and it is! heheh naughty bread.

I'm probably not writing very well tonight.. not that I'm a 'writer' or anything.. I'm just not paying attention and doing other things, so if sentences start and end funny don't worry man.

Where was I..hmm.. MY RED CELL.. yes.. Ice and Snow...kind-of yes, um..what else have I done.. or thought.. hmm the other day I had an interview for an art foundation course, but that was the 26th, so I might have written it in my previous post..and if I havent..well seeing as it was cancelled it doesn't matter anyway.

I woke up at midday today, which I was dissapointed in. I'm always dissapointed when I waste that much day light., 11 is ok...but 12...hmm. 2 is even worse! I have to stay up half the night afterwards to warrant getting up at 2 and therefore having spent enough time awake to make it worth while to sleep.
Um... I hope thats not too confusing. Heh. so what if it is.

Then I watched Donnie Darko until 2pm something. For the second time it still doesn't effect me. It doesn't strike me as an amazing film. Yeah it's quite cool, but not brilliant. And Drew Barrymore as that teacher is dodgy, and so is the therapist, and the way they say "cunning-Ham" and..everything else.

I will stop now, mainly because I think I'm waffling and also because I haven't much more to say, and the 'thought's I do have to say require too much thinking to be bothering with now.

*hug*