I thought I'd write something. I've been reading some of my old stuff, from the summer and stuff, and it's funny some of the stuff I forget.
My head, my head. It's hard but fun being 18 now, confusing. My poor head decides on one thing (pretty hard to do) then one little word from someone can make it flip round and make me feel all unhappy..when i was previously happy. Then I can't decide what I want, and when you know that stuff begins to be funner again. Ohh I don't know. One or two little words...all it takes...
Ice and Snow dammit. spoilt my plans. Ok, so I've had a couple of days of school, but what's so bad with school..my friends are there, I have relitively interesting lessons..? But the stuff I was quite looking forward to might & has been prevented by it. An interview for the art foundation course cancelled, which I quite wanted to get over with. Going out tonight, going out tomorrow, Hmm.
I should go to sleep now..My mind is -again- in the state of transitional thrown out of settled-ness. So is basically unsettled. hmm....ah well, sleep will sort everything out. If I wanted, my concious mind could do it itself -sort things out I mean, but my subconcious needs a bit more than just telling what to do. I can't force my subconcious, I can only nudge it, then sleep on it, when it'll get everything in order.
Ok, despite a 39% download, I think I'll go, I have to somehow get to work tomorrow, which'll mean walking down the steep hill in the cold icy morning and attempting to drive all the 30 miles (or whatever it is..probably more than that) to the shop. I also have no idea what I'm going to do tomorrow night..me and friends are going to see a band, but I probably won't be able to get up the hill when I come home..due to ice..and I'd Reeally rather not walk up that hill at a silly hour of the morning..hmm. we'll see. Go with the Flow type thing.
Night x x *kiss*
My head, my head. It's hard but fun being 18 now, confusing. My poor head decides on one thing (pretty hard to do) then one little word from someone can make it flip round and make me feel all unhappy..when i was previously happy. Then I can't decide what I want, and when you know that stuff begins to be funner again. Ohh I don't know. One or two little words...all it takes...
Ice and Snow dammit. spoilt my plans. Ok, so I've had a couple of days of school, but what's so bad with school..my friends are there, I have relitively interesting lessons..? But the stuff I was quite looking forward to might & has been prevented by it. An interview for the art foundation course cancelled, which I quite wanted to get over with. Going out tonight, going out tomorrow, Hmm.
I should go to sleep now..My mind is -again- in the state of transitional thrown out of settled-ness. So is basically unsettled. hmm....ah well, sleep will sort everything out. If I wanted, my concious mind could do it itself -sort things out I mean, but my subconcious needs a bit more than just telling what to do. I can't force my subconcious, I can only nudge it, then sleep on it, when it'll get everything in order.
Ok, despite a 39% download, I think I'll go, I have to somehow get to work tomorrow, which'll mean walking down the steep hill in the cold icy morning and attempting to drive all the 30 miles (or whatever it is..probably more than that) to the shop. I also have no idea what I'm going to do tomorrow night..me and friends are going to see a band, but I probably won't be able to get up the hill when I come home..due to ice..and I'd Reeally rather not walk up that hill at a silly hour of the morning..hmm. we'll see. Go with the Flow type thing.
Night x x *kiss*
